Grow Up, Move On...

... This past weekend, amidst my relaxing chill-out sessions, I got into thinking about my future.

Really, REALLY thinking.

I guess there's nothing like a good dose of reality to hit you, so much so that it jolts your very being. And now I realize I gotta lay down some ground rules and lay the foundation right for the years ahead.

You see, I've been working in KL for 5 years, and I've had my fair share of fun. There are things I've not regretted being a part of, seen, and experienced. Even the things that were unfavourable taught me a lesson or two about myself, the people around me, or the society at large. And I've moved so many times - from my grandma's in Puchong to dad's rented place in Serdang then to the apartment in Ampang and now in PJ - and I'm not surprised if people can't keep track of me!!

... So this weekend I thought about what I want to do, at least for the next 5 years. Do I want to live my life slightly differently? (I am already, but it could always be improved.) Do I want to be slave to my circumstances, or get in the driver's seat to dictate how my life should be? Do I want to pursue the full breadth of my dreams: at work, in church, and more?

... The more I think about it, the more I know I owe it to myself to give me a fair chance of living a great life. And that means making very concrete decisions that will potentially and definitely alter my lifestyle dramatically for the better from now on.

For me, it has never been about status, or accumulation of wealth. I just want to live a peaceful life, and be able to make the best of the talents God has blessed me with, that I may bless the others around me.

Someone told me this week that I probably have what it takes to be successful in whatever I put my hand into, due to my nature. I guess I've been so bogged by the details (of everything right and wrong going on) that I forgot to take a step back to look at the big picture that is my life, and figure where I was going...

I am resolved to take that which is entrusted to me to build a solid foundation, and use them in one way or another to bless the people I come into contact with. I have plans, and in His time, I pray that He will bring them to pass according to His will.

... In 5 years' time, when it has been 10 years since I ventured into the "adult" working world, I hope I would be able to say that I have grown up, and moved on into God's beautiful agenda for my life. God willing. =)