Enough with the Emo already!

Got "swiped" the other day by a well-meaning friend that my blog was dead. It's one part choice, and the other part circumstance... On one hand the ballooning work pile meant that I was getting less free time to spend on myself; and at the opposite end, I HAD things to blog about, but decided not to, for fear of exposing too much to the online community.

I read my recent posts, and kinda got worried myself. Gosh, why so emo? Awhile filled with hatred, awhile reaching out, awhile consumed with deep sadness. Whoa.

But that's me, I guess. No apologies for that, in a way. You bleed to know you're alive; you justify the presence and expression of extreme emotions by saying you still have a conscience and are not robbed of the capacity to feel, not numbed by the depression of this world.

oh no there i go again....

In 2 hours, the TeenStreet Band will have a reunion at the TeenStreet 9-to-9... We did the soundcheck last night and it just brought me back to December last year when we led the teens into the Throne Room, where the teamwork just awesome, the atmosphere of the nightly gigs extremely electric, the presence of God completely overwhelming.

Yes, I'm the oldest and the only female musician in the band, and sometimes I feel really old next to them young ones. (Unfortunately that's what work does to even the strongest of us.)

But the stage is a great equalizer (as Ian would put it) - and when we're there, playing our hearts out, giving our best to the One who deserves our all... all feelings of inadequacy vanish, all traces of fatigue ebb away, to be replaced by the sheer joy of coming together to worship Him and give Him the loudest praise we possibly can; to glorify the King who has come to take our burdens and cleanse our sins, the Saviour that grants us hope for eternity, the true GOD who was, who is, and is to come.

I look at the young musicians with pride, amazed by their ability, grateful for the way that they have grown up and living now. I respect each one tremendously, and pray that each will find his joy within His will.

One and a half hours to go. Can't wait! =)

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