Frustrations & Solitude

My car radiator decided to act up just as I was about to meet 2 friends for a enjoyable catch-up session; resulting in me wasting my time driving back and forth; and my sis not wanting to stay in my place because we needed to cool down.

And I had fought SO hard for a free weekend to get back some semblance of a life.

To say I was frustrated didn't quite cut it; I was literally stewing and if I had some kind of ailment I may have foamed at the mouth. The tears that came were the only things that betrayed me.

Yet when I went back I realized that it was perhaps good to have some time of quietness. So I lunched, read, looked out the window, napped. And when my cousin called for dinner, I was refreshed once again.

Sometimes we fill our lives with so many things that we forget to take time out and refocus.

Going to church today was pretty cool because I managed to greet people at the door (most of the times when we're on duty, I have clashing slots on the worship team). And being with our cellobots - laughing, hugging, sharing - were a soothing balm over my heart. I'm grateful, so grateful, for this journey we share.

Rev Wong preached on the Beautitudes in the book of Ecclesiastes, about how there was a time for everything. Life is like that - you have joy and sorrow complementing each other; love and hate; war and peace.

If you have not tasted bitterness, how then would you appreciate the sweet?

God is all-wise; He knows that we tend to learn the hard way. My weekend was peppered with twin combinations of frustrations and much-needed solitude. Now I am refreshed, ready. And on my knees more than ever when I contemplate the week ahead.

Can't do anything without You, God. You are my strength unlike any other.

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