The Liberated Woman Speaks

From now on I will live my life to the fullest,
Laugh my heartiest,
Choose to love whoever I choose.

Such A High Calling, Lord

Why does Your commandment have a responsibility to You and to others?
Why is loving others so difficult?
Why should I extend forgiveness 49 times? Okay Lord, I understand, You mean it to be more than that. But I've a problem with forgiving the same person even 10 times.
A high calling, Lord... Such a high calling.

How could You ignore it, Lord, when people kicked and spat at You?
How could You remain silent amidst the jeers?
How could You die for a people who didn't love You back?
A high calling, Lord... Such a high calling.

Why can't I be like You Lord?

How can I take things calmly when others are mean to me without reason?

Why can't I just learn to forgive and forget? Oh I almost forgot. I am woman, after all.
Still, a high calling, Lord... Such a high calling.

I need You Lord. I need You to pull me up to fulfil the high calling.

Happy new year, Julia. May the rest of the 364 days in 2008 be happier than this.

Hope of the World

Little baby, You're a gift from up above

Come to save me, symbol of the Father's love

I'm grateful Lord

Star was shining, bright for everyone to see

Jesus light of all the world had come to be

Our Saviour, Friend

Then the angel host appeared, bringing tidings and good cheer

For Father God began His perfect plan

Lord You came down to earth

Bringing hope of new birth

I bow down and worship You alone

And for all of my days

I will sing of Your wonderful, matchless, redeeming grace

Jesus hope of the world, for me

I didn't know You, yet You called me by name

Since that day Lord, my life has never been the same

My heart resounds

Through the darkness, I look up to see Your face

Outstretched arms Lord, I will run to Your embrace

Secure in You

Every tear I shed, He sees,

I will know no other peace,

And evermore proclaim His grace and mercy

Everything I possess is from You

You came to meet my deepest need

There's no other love like the love of my Jesus

All glory and praise to Thee!

p.s.: Thanks Phylli and WeeLee for taking this and making it available. Thank You God, for the first Christmas, the inspiration.

In all finality

Abandon:

1. To leave completely and finally, to utterly desert.
2. To give up entirely, or withdraw from.
3. A complete surrender to natural impulses without restraint or moderation; freedom from inhibition or conventionality.

Notice how the word "abandon" seems to be so extreme in its meaning... "completely... utterly... entirely... without restraint or moderation..." ... a FULL word. No wonder one feels so empty, devoid, unthinking, unfeeling...

Where did the year go?

Gee. It's December. Already. I. Can't. Believe. It.

Too. Fast. I. Can't. Catch. Up. *thud*

Okay okay I know it's a bit melodramatic but hey, when was the last time I wasn't? And it IS true, I do feel like the year has just whizzed by and my soul, the real me, is trying to keep up with it.

I'm still in the reflective mode on the 2007 thus far and haven't quite gotten a theme for it, but keywords floating around are "tumultous", "discovery", "ovewhelmed", "new beginnings". There were some aspects in my life that I let go of, others renewed. In some ways it even involved the redefinition of thresholds and capabilities.

I know I'm talking in code... we'll see if my thoughts clear up. Back to the time of reflection...